I know I'm a day late, but I sang to you yesterday so I hope that was awesome for you :)
Did you have a great party? I wish I could've been there...
I decided to go to VA Beach the weekend of 11/6-8 to visit a college friend (Rachel Lynch? I don't think you know her). So that should be fun. And... I wrote like a two-page document on why I'm so stressed right now that I have a pinched nerve in my neck, but I deleted it cuz it was SO long. Let's just say: I spent all weekend job-searching. And it didn't help; I became more frustrated cuz if I don't want to do what I'm doing, I don't know what I want to do. I even thought about going back to school for MATH. MATH. I am a mess. But today I felt peace for the first time in over a week. Like--Thursday night I sobbed on my couch for 2 hours. I still want to cry, but I don't want to scream as badly. I have to keep trusting through this whole situation--the stress, the pressure, the unhappiness, the emptiness, the hopelessness... that God hasn't left me. And He hasn't. And He gave me verses this morning that promise that He will provide for me and save me from the almost-despair I'm feeling right now in what I'm doing. And even though it's in the future, today He gave me peace to get through the day. Because I think that's the hardest--when you know something good is coming but you're in the middle of something crappy? How the heck do you handle NOW? And He helped me today, by providing me patience, and even joy at moments. And peace. Only He can give those things because as I said.. I'm a mess.
I ran 5 miles tonight. Probably the highlight of my week. And speaking of running, watch this sweet video:
They are crazy! And fun :) Click here for more. They call it "free running" or "extreme running." If you've seen it before, watch it again :)
Okay, I need to go to bed now. I love you and wish you were here!
--E
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